Yeah, it's true I haven't posted since Feb....but hey, I'm old & life is busy. In between blogs my life has been crazy...but Never, never boring. more later..be blessed planet

Approahing Valentine's Day

OK, sure it's likely a 'manufactured' holiday from Hallmark or some other greeting card company,but hey...I like it! Why not celebrate love and romance. Could that really be dangerous? ( I'm sorry our society has been damaged by too much emphasis on love)....I don't think so. Of course I'm talking about actual true, real love...Commitment, promise. Seems like too few people understand, or even want to understand what real love actually is. We all seem so satisfied with the imitation. Lust. Lust is such a psuedo-emotion. I 'love' you for what you do for me...for what you do for me today...so changeable...so fickle. I 'love' you today...who knows if I will tomorrow. 
       True love, REAL love is a promise. It's not based on the recipient, it's based on the giver. I love you..it's a promise...no matter what you do or don't do...I love you....means I want the Best for you...no matter what it costs me.....convenient, inconvenient....happy or sad, messy or neat and clean. I love you....REGARDLESS of emotion...it's a promise, a commitment. But God in His mercy in a committed relationship blesses us with the 'icing and sprinkles' on the cake of our lives.
       I appreciate the Romance in life and love as well. Rejoicing in the amazing beauty of this world God has blessed us with. Not discounting the darkness, the sickness, the sadness and evil in the world....it's God's mercy and grace int eh midst of all these complications...the splashes of beauty, punctuating the hum-drum, the every day, and the bone crushing hardness in life that always takes me breathe away. 
       More in this theme later as the business of this mom's life permits

Halloween

OK I'm seriously Not a fan of Halloween. I think it's a truly pagan holiday, and that as a follower of Christ, I have no business celebrating it. That said, I see that following the letter of the law can pull me from living the love of Jesus to this World...which is why I'm here. So I had been looking forward to blessing the neighbor kids with candy this evening until I found I was scheduled to work. So I'm hoping my husband does as he said & fills in for me. 

  Now for work I'm supposed to dress up, but I haven't done that for years....hope I can come up with a believable idea.

my children have inherited my sense of humor

still working on being faithful to this

Life is just so busy, so constant ( & not likely interesting to anyone else), so I haven't been as faithful to this as I could be. Still I'm not giving up.

   It was almost exactly 7 days ago that I managed to fall part way down my basement steps and sprained both of my ankles at once. Since I did that I had to miss work on Friday, Saturday, & Sunday. I already had Monday off so my 1st shift back to work was Tuesday. I work as a cashier & customer service specialist so it's an on my feet on the go job. Thankfully, each day I seem to be having a little less pain a little less swelling. (at least having Mon., Weds. & Fri. off has helped)

   My youngest child is a licensed driver as of this afternoon. Wow, now except for money & food, they barely need me for anything. I'm happy for him, but it hits me harder how short a time is left before my children are all out on their own & need nothing more from me at all.

so much for posting daily

             Well, that hasn't worked out quite as well as I planned; but still, I'm not giving up. 

Thank God we've had a turn in the weather in the Midwest. We even had a day in the 70's. 

            I'm still only working around 33-35 hrs a week, but it freaks me out how worn out it makes me. I'm about to turn 47 & I simply don't have the energy I had in my 20's. I don't know how people who wait until their 30's & 40's to start having children. No way could I keep up with babies or toddlers 24/7 at my age.

           I find myself lately praying more & more for my sons & my 'spare' kids. I'm praying that God draws them closer, keeps them from harm, blessing their lives & wrapping them in His love.

            ~more later cyber world

marriage counseling

We had a marriage counseling appointment today; my husband of 25 years & I ......Wow. It is good & bad & hard & crazy all rolled into one. This marriage thing is harder & better than I ever could have imagined. I'm praying we get better at it so it lasts the rest of our lives.It's been a long & complicated day (magnified by the intense heat in our country lately). Praying God keeps people safe in this heat